damn damn godamn it
i am seriously wondering why on earth am i blogging
esp on such a lovely sat night
when i can spend my time mapling instead
well,the stupid connection is so whatever
keeps lagging and i alr died once if thats not enough
ugh

it was such a wonder seeing u today
but sometimes i get so frustrated
you don't know how totally clueless you are
i like you and you don't even have the slightless hint
i'm already trying my best to be as obvious as possible
and yet you still don't know anything
maybe i shall give you a nick?
then u'll be informed
but then you don't even ead my blog so why should i even bother
thats because i care about you
i do so much for you
yet i get nothing out of it
and you are out there so shy and clueless about my feelings for you
sometimes i just want to give up..

ok enough of my rambling...
today i woke up like damn late haha
then b4 web i went fareast look for jill's bday pressie
can't find anything nice sia
web was ok..
i think i should start finding time to go for wg
i should set my priorities
btw jill was asking me abt this church called st john's church or smth
cos keith (her dream guy,who's kinda similar to my dream guy cos they both play the bass),
attends that church and she's interested to go there
and i think that church seems cool
i think i should go to other churches and see how its like
cos in covenant i feel like i don't really belong there
its like i'm an extra or wtv
today i saw duane in church
the thing btw us is still kinda going on
i really want to apologise to him but i'm kinda afraid that smth bad will come out of it
i think the two of us also a bit hoa lian dun wan say sorry
but i smiled to him today
i think i'll try talking to him next week
see what happens...
just hope that everything goes well..

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