this lovehas taken control of me
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
11:43 PM
my comp really sucks manmight spoil anytimekeeps auto restartbut thats not what i want to rant abt today..today was...boringwrapping presents lalalasmsing ppl to come ZCC..plain boringsometimes i just don't understand why life could be anymore complicatedand with him its worseone day,he's so nice and treats me really goodthen the next day,he acts like nothing ever happened and ignores me(kinda)it puts me into a very difficult positioneven though i know i have to stop worryingand let god take control of my lifebut its just too hard to me to not worryi keep thinking insanelylike i might not even be the one that he likesor that the girl he likes is everything i'm not..sometimes i just feel like breaking downbut love is not a seasonal thing but its undivided and constantand thats exactly what i feel for him eversince last june?thats like one and a half yrsbut somewhere in btw i liked someone elseits kinda weird to say that one can love two guys at the same time..well i guess i can only let god have his wayand maybe time will tellbut i dont think i can wait much longeri'm pretty much done with waitingi wish that there would be some kind of signso that i know if i am the one he has feelings forif only god would show me..okay enough of my mushy talk and all thatwell,its getting late and i better go sleepcos im waking up early tml to go swimming at safra clubhehe the pool there damn nicenote to self: rmb to put sun blockso that i wont get another sun tancos... I WANT TO BE FAIR LIKE SNOW WHITELabels: Can i have your picture so that i can show Santa what i want for christmas?
And nothing can hold me back from you...